Tomorrow, I have a doctor’s appointment. It’s one of those, “We have the results of your lab work, and it’s nothing major, but we’d like to discuss it with you” type appointments. The kind that give folks nervous butterflies, anxious feelings and sleepless nights. But I’m not worried. Well, not really.
Of course a teeny, tiny part of me does worry, because I believe it’s human nature. Those of us cursed with the “worst case scenario” visions are prone to worrying and fretting, biting fingernails, pacing the kitchen floor, folding sheets of paper into perfect squares and counting things in multiples of fives (what? just me?)
Here’s the deal…I want to be here a long, long time. I want to be with my husband and son for an unreasonable amount of time (millions of days, is that so much to ask?) And if it’s in God’s plan, we’d like to have a whole litter of children (and cats). There are places to go, mountains to climb, cheesecakes to eat. But I’m not worried about missing a moment, because I have faith.
I live faithfully. I don’t just believe in a god; I believe in The God. The one who breathed me to life, who created the heavens and earth, who provides for us each and every single day, and blesses us tremendously in ways you cannot begin to imagine. He is my Father, who loves unconditionally, practices grace and forgiveness, and who has never, ever, ever left my side. I live faithfully, because I serve a faithful God.
When asked why I believe in God, my response is typically along the lines of, “I can’t imagine not believing.” The number of instances, moments, situations and circumstances in which God has been present in my life are innumerable. We have weathered many storms, walked many deep valleys and danced on many, many mountaintops, together.
I am faithful and certain that, regardless of tomorrow’s outcome, my God will take care of me and provide for me. My God is powerful, my God is present, and my God is proven.
“Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ” – Matthew 6:26